WARNING! NOT FOR THE FAINT OF HEART.
I am so looking forward to having this done. My greatest desire in life above all is to be rid of my male genitals, and unlike most M2F transsexuals who get gender confirmation, I have chosen to be neutral and go gender less.
There are two reasons for my having chosen this path, first and foremost, gender has been the most painful and the most agonizing part of my life, being confused most of my life, thinking that I wasn't gay, but I really was bi-sexual. The reality that set in after repeated attempts to live the life of a heterosexual male failing every time, that perhaps there is a different alternative for me that would make me happy and that will at long last bring me peace. And, to be honest, I just can't wrap my mind around having to be male or having to be female, after many years of emotional anguish and psychological torment, I just can't relate to either being male or being female, so I am essentially defying gender and I'm defying having to conform to what society deems normal.
So, what will I be, a man or a woman? I'll be neither yet I will be both, hence my chosen name, Baphomet, however, while it is typically known for having both boobies and male genitals, I am doing the total opposite, choosing to have no genitals, giving in to the twisted logic that drives my insanity.